“Hold On” (a sonic poem)

I recorded this “sonic poem” a few minutes ago. I haven’t been singing much lately, so it’s a rarity.

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“Hold On” lyrics by jason elijah

hold on
to what you’ve got
don’t hold on
to what you’ve got
you just let it go
just tell me no
just hold on
just hold on
let it go

hold on
no, no, no, no…

just hang out for
a little while
just hang out
and nod and smile
just hang around
and take what you want
and just go, go away

just hang on
to nothing at all
just tell me
oh, nothing about it
I don’t want to know
just hang around and
take what you need
and then let go
let go of me
just let me be
here alone

Cloudy

This was written as a song, but I like it as a poem, so here are the lyrics…

“Cloudy” by j elijah

each day that you come down
from your cloud
and you see what’s going on
around you
you integrate
the people that you see
you don’t separate
what you see
that you’re one with them
you know this to be
a basic reality

you come down from your cloud
and you see
a crowd around you
bowing down before you
what do you expect to think
except that you
are so wonderful, so wonderful
but aren’t the ones that you see
on their knees
wonderful
wonderful
wonderful as well

in between hypotheses
I see somewhere sneaking
around there
a dream about which
we must be so aware
and that is the one that brings
us together
the one so, so light as a feather
it floats here and there
through all the thousands
of lights there
so bright there
I can’t believe
this is what they see

can you believe anything
when you know what’s
really in there
how can you believe anything
when you know
the truth about what’s
been going on for centuries
can you believe
can you be released
from the chains of
of anything that keeps
you from being
who you are
you feel is real in yourself
but you don’t hurt anyone else, no
just don’t hurt anyone else, no

in between your dreams
there’s another reality
it’s the one that you don’t see
it’s the one in your friends
and your enemies, I said
that you don’t see
is your friends
and your enemies

j elijah – We Don’t Know Us

The second j elijah album, We Don’t Know Us, is available for order here, in CD and mp3 format. Thanks to everyone who has given their support and feedback, and to all who enjoy the songs, dark and strange as they may be. The album is an intimate gothic serial in nine parts, and of course it’s all about these things inside.

j elijah
We Don’t Know Us

1. Come Back
2. Fly Away
3. Who’s That
4. You Came Down Here
5. Hanging On
6. Blindly
7. Domestic
8. Unaware
9. Out She Comes

impromptu EP (4 new songs)

I pressed Record and wrote 4 songs tonight, just enough for an EP. I’ll call this the impromptu EP, since it wasn’t really planned and the songs all happened spontaneously. I love little songs like these. Sonic poems. I may add more sounds later, but for now here they are, raw and unedited.

j elijah – impromptu EP

1. Just Listen
2. In a Vase
3. Lined Up
4. Slide In

[ lyrics ]

“Breathe” EP release

On February 14, 2009, the new EP, Breathe, will be available for order. “Breathe” is one of my favorite tracks from the album, She Comes in Peace, so she’s leading this one. The EP also features four previously unreleased songs: “In Here,” “Lovely Day,” “Go Back Inside,” and “Changed”.

[ this CD is no longer available ]

“You Came Down Here”

Here’s a new song that came in one take, possibly for the next collection…

( download the song here )

“You Came Down Here” lyrics by j elijah

you came down here
and you took my time
you took my life
you took my heart
you took my house

you came down here
you took away all of it
and all I can say
is why

you came down here
and you said
“I love you darling”
I said
oh no, dear
hold on, dear

you came down here
you said
“I hate you darling”
I said
oh no, dear
oh no, oh no, dear
what’s going on here?
in this life
you know, you know
in your house
in your life

you came down here
you took my head
you took my head
you came down here
you took my head
you took my heart
you came down here
you came around here

“Out She Comes”

This song came today and she’s really nice and made me feel alright.

( download the song here )

“Out She Comes” lyrics by j elijah

out she comes and in she goes
out she comes and in she goes
out she comes and in she goes

out she comes and in she goes
out she comes and in she goes

I told her
you should
keep your eye out
for something over there
something over here
something out there

now here she comes
out there
in she comes
in here
a little girl
hiding there

I wish you a good time
I don’t know
I wish you a good time
and I know
oh come down here
come down here
come down here
and stay for a little while
and stay for a little while

“Underground”

This song happened last night, and I liked it. “Underground,” thinking of things like ghosts coming out from the grave, out from underground. maybe we’re all ghosts floating around.

( download the song here )

“Underground” lyrics by j elijah

there are places I won’t go
and I won’t even know
to tell you where to go
there are things that I found out
that I didn’t really want to know
there are ways that I’ve been
that I’ve not seen
that I’ve not held on to
there are ways that we let go of
it’s about time we do

and the ghost comes through
and feels you
and the ghost comes through
and heals you
do you know what it feels to you?

sometimes you let things go
and you don’t know until
it’s out the window
sometimes you wonder why
it matters at all anyway
sometimes you let it fly
you don’t know why
I still don’t know why
sometimes you just cry
or maybe that’s when you realize
it’s when you realize
there’s another door
for you
there’s always something more for you

and then you just
go through that door
don’t look back anymore
don’t look back anymore, no

I floated around
before I hit the ground
I didn’t make a sound
I floated around
for awhile before I came down
and hit the ground
and realized all the time
I never made a sound
I never made a sound
how do you expect to be found
without sound
without sound
you’ll never be
never be
out from underground

j elijah – She Comes in Peace

She comes in peace is the first official collection of songs by j elijah, available here in CD and mp3 format.

j elijah
She Comes in Peace

1. Here She Comes
2. Breathe
3. Go On
4. Remember
5. All the Time
6. Traveling
7. Throw It Away
8. Hallelujah
9. Stay
10. Happy Town
11. The Blue Dress
12. Sleep in Peace

“The Happiest Day”

this song came today so I guess it is happy indeed.

( download the song here )

“The Happiest Day” lyrics by j elijah

it’s a happy day
I go through it like every other
it’s a happy day
I go floating through it
it’s a happy day
just like every other
it’s a glorious day
I look up at the sky and I say
thank you for letting me see this
thank you for letting me be this
it’s a happy day
it’s my favorite kind of place
my favorite kind of place
won’t you come with me
won’t you come with me
and see it
today, yeah

we go through, we go through, we go through
we keep going on through
we keep going on through
we keep pressing through
we keep pushing ourselves that way
we keep going that way
and squeezing everything
every drop through
squeezing everything
every drop through
every drop through
you go through
you go on
you get there
you see
on the other side
there’s a space
you can breathe

you live there
you live right there
you live there
you live right there
it’s your house
it’s your place
in the mirror you see
every day it’s your face
it’s your house
it’s your place
every day in the mirror you see
you see your face
smiling back at you
sometimes it’s laughing back at you
sometimes it’s crying back at you
sometimes it’s laughing at you
sometimes it’s crying with you
sometimes it’s just smiling through

oh, I want to know
oh, you want to know
oh doesn’t everybody want to know
how it goes on
how it goes on

I believe that sometimes
you come in here
you look at your other one
and you say, dear
oh, who are you in here
dear, oh, who are you in here
dear, I really, really, really tried
to be this
I really, really tried
to see this
I really, really tried
to believe it
but I don’t know if it remains true
when I come out of you
I don’t know if it is the real deal, baby
when it’s not how I feel
when I look out there
and see me crawling around
see me clawing the ground
see me not even making a sound

what does that mean?
you see these things
oh, what’s it mean to me?

I pulled myself out of the hole
looked up into the sky
I pulled myself out
I wondered why
I look around and shake off the dirt
wonder why it hurts
so much to be here again
when it’s so nice

it’s a happy, yes
happy day
it’s the loveliest one of all
I’ve come here
I came
I had to
it’s the happiest day
happiest day
don’t you know
it always ends this
way